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Monday, 18 October 2010

Ups and downs of life



So… it’s Monday and the week definitely has to pick up from here. Poor Monday gets incredibly bad rap as it is.

I woke up in the early hours to a thud. Jurgis had gotten up, decided to check something on my pc and knocked my stand with the webcam over. I still don’t know if it’s damaged. I’ll check it out later once the day starts improving.

The sound of gentle rain woke me up later. That was worth a smile. I lay listening to it for a while, then was slapped by the sound of our UPS’ beeping. Gah… power failure! It lasted for 2 hours and now our internet won’t start up. Thing is, if our internet doesn’t work, we’re without a phone too, as our phone is through our net service. We could call them, but they make you hold for ages and we’d have to call with cell phones. On our regular phone, last time we called, it turned out to be less than cheap.

I texted my student for this morning to confirm her class - her times were due to change. Just got the reply. She had told the agent I get work through that she was stopping classes as something had changed with her work. Thanks for letting me know, folks! No one told me. It was thanks to a gut feeling that I texted her. I was dressed and ready to go to meet her.

Yes, she did say it was due to changes in her work, but it’s so, so hard not to take it personally. I’ll never know if it was me. One thing about Brazilians is that they’re polite to a fault (ok, polite in some ways, such as not being able to say ‘no’). Any excuse will do as long as they don’t have to tell you to your face that something is wrong. My head is telling me that it’s bull. My heart is asking far too many questions. Ah well.

As I said, the morning can only get better, right? On the bright side, losing a student means my schedule is clearing for better students or for the course to enter that school… the one with all the super benefits. Yeah! That’s it. Now to convince my self-esteem that all is well.

27 comments:

  1. I'm that way to a degree. Rather than hurt someone's feelings, I'll back out using an excuse other than "I really don't like you all that much". No bridges burned either. The agent could have informed you though.

    As you say, a new door can open now!!

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  2. Hope Tuesday gets better, and you know the old saying: " when one door closes , another opens" . You are bound to get another 10 good students ! Will pray for that !

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  3. I am sure Tuesday will be better for you.................had a hectic Monday myself, on the good side Michelle came today instead of tomorrow, so can arrange family dinner tonight.

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  4. Wow is it the moon or something outside that we're all in the same kinda mood, or going through very similar feelings and senses?!.. hmm anyway, I hope your day and week improve! No news on that school?

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  5. Kat, I know why they do it, but it would be nice to be told instead of finding out late via a third party. On the other hand, it turns out the issue was more technical... he had emailed me to let me know. Go tech!

    Marianne, I like the 'on the good side' part. Mine had a good side in the end. I'll blog it in a bit, seeing as I have a few moments off now.

    Dani, I have a lot of blog catching up to do, so I'll see what's up on your end of the world. Hope it gets better! As for the school, that is still in the pipeline. There's the initial contact where they view your resume, then the test, then a group 'dinamica', a test to see how well you work in a team, I think. Then there's the actual interview, after which training starts. All this happens in Brazil-style 'em breve' lol

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  6. Haha 'em breve' style.. good luck then! Don't they notify you of your result on those steps?
    Don't worry about catching up, I'm going through one of those times in life when you feel you're a mere observer, y'know.. It'll pass, I hope!

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  7. Well, two steps have gone and I've passed them both well - no definite results given though. As for me, I'm barely observing right now. I see 61 unread posts in my inbox and I know there are more because some I clicked on in my mailbox when attempting to get to work emails. I'll pass... everything is temporary.

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  8. Yup. It would have. Did she have to notify the agency first?

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  9. No, Kat. If it was a time issue, it should have been discussed with me first, which is what makes it all the more frustrating. The agent is there purely to connect the student to the teacher. From then on, whatever we arrange is between us. All is good though.

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  10. Then it's annoying on many levels!! I'm glad you're ok with it though!

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  11. Sigh..that's sucks! Mondays looking a bit ..bleak here too...

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  12. Well, I'm sure you know I can relate to the feeling of taking things of that nature very personally. :( I'm so sorry. As an outside observer, I say "no WAY could it be you" but I know how I have felt in similar situations, so really all I can say is I'm sorry and I do hope not only that today gets better but that this is, as you said, leading up to a bigger and better situation!

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  13. I take everything personally. Don't feel bad haha.

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  14. Sometimes the world works in really weird ways... maybe big things are coming since the Universe seems to be making room in your schedule?

    As for not taking it personally... yeowch. SO hard to not take it personally when it's your personal teaching and lessons and interaction that we're talking about here. *sighs

    I'll be thinking of you today, sending happy vibes!!!! *HUGS*

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  15. ALL IS WELL.. somebody better will come up.. keep your chin up..

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  16. I am sorry it has been a rough start to the week, I am so different from you, I go YAY! I am up and dressed but can't change anything so now will go read in a book shop or coffee shop or curl up at home or something, I am so happy when I am selfish, which I am good at, I admit. Give your self esteem a break and look for the positives and treat yourself gently!

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  17. Kat, I'm trying very hard to be ok with it. Some days it works. Other days it doesn't.

    Heather, oh no... I hope your day perked up in the end!

    Kippy, yes, I pretty much knew you could relate. I take many things personally and I know I shouldn't, but all is good, right?

    Kat... that made me laugh!

    Jaime... bless you! That's just what I needed to hear and the conclusion I came to after the fact. Hugs back!

    Thanks Tori!

    Mart... I love your attitude. I do sometimes do that... just throw up my hands and enjoy the time off. Then I have times when I stress and worry and fret over income lost and bills to be paid and I start spinning in circles before any form of logical thought actually hits my brain.

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  18. There is a popular saying 'When a door closes, a window opens'. And while it is quite true, the problem of spotting that open window as well as being able to reach it and climb through it remains. Taking a deep breath and a minute to 'look around myself as well as inside myself' always work for me - with a mind cleared it is easier to think sharper. But I still know just too well how hard can it be to build self esteem after yet another bump on your road.

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  19. That's just it. I reacted before the 'deep breath and taking a minute' :) All is really good. My self-esteem has been restored and it is, after all, just a bump on the road. I always say it makes life interesting.

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  20. *deep sigh*

    Things always look up, don't they, Tint? I mean...don't they?

    With time, I think, things end the way they should. :) Take heart, sweetie-and that deep breath!

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  21. oh, they do :) Thing is that sometimes it just takes way too long for one's taste/needs *sigh*

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  22. again...hope you found the sunny side yesterday! sure sounds like a frustrating morning tint. :( hugs....

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  23. Kat, yes they do. Though, as Asta says, sometimes we're in a hurry to see changes :) Breathing deeply. Thankfully, the air was nice and fresh on my walk home today!

    Asta, that's just it. We want the change and we want it NOW *stomping foot* lol

    Thanks Kimmy. I did find the sunny side and it helps that today was simply gorgeous. Nice temperatures, sunshine, a fresh wind... lovely!

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  24. sure you're right, Tint. But it is still unfortunate that stomping foot and tantrums work only for the very young kids *deep sigh*

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  25. Ah to be a kid again :)

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  26. I read this AFTER the next blog, so we already kn ow you had a happy ending. But what struck me: how lucky that your intuition prompted you to text her!

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  27. Absolutely, Ien! I think, though, that it's like most things in life... as you become used to the way people think, you're more inclined to anticipate issues.

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